The fine line between sanity and insanity becomes ever so clearer as time passes and decisions become harder and less about me but about the happiness and safety of my family. I have found that motherhood if not handled with care can turn into a real identity crisis. Who am I in the world these days? And why aren’t my wants and likes a priority? Isn’t a happy mom a better mom? Then again, isn’t that the selfish and easy way out of the responsibility I accepted when I gave birth to my child? As a working mother, running my own business, I find myself caught in this ever so narrow space between the sane and the insane. In my rants i discuss the reasons, the scenarios, and reflect a bit on the crazy thoughts that run through my mind.

A birthday wish

6 years ago the brightest light shone for the first time in our lives. Lior, you are a breath of fresh air, a reminder of simplicity and the obvious. You are beautiful innocence and the sweetest, funniest little guy. I am honored to be part of you, and proud that you are part of me. Happy birthday Coco. I love you no number ;)

Paranoia

Totally and absurdly out of my mind. Literally.The chain of thoughts that just occurred to me are absolutely and totally ridiculous. But, are they?

Fewer things are more frustrating than Apple ID rules and iCloud

I never really thought i would be so negatively impacted by anything related to Apple. I love all my devices, and I own a few; however, Apple IDs, aliases, iCloud, etc. are the most annoying features. I realize that the idea is to have everything play nice together and give us the opoortunity toe have all are info replicated without flaw while we are on the move. The reality however is, that if you created your AppleID a bunch of years ago and you now deicde that you can no longer use idiot@me.com as your email address you need to create an alias, in which case you now have to make sure everytime you write an email from your apple mail client you need to make sure that the alias is the email address listed on the “From” section of the message header.

If you happen to be obsessively anal like me, and you don’t like having random email addresses listed and you just want to use the one, you may want to delete that alias and create a new Apple ID using that alias. But you can’t, because iCloud thinks that email address or Apple ID is already in use. So you breath in and decide to suck it up and re-add the alias to your original Apple ID, but you can’t. You must wait 7 days before you are able to create any new aliases. two months go by and you still can’t add an alias beacuse you “recently” deleted one; but you haven’t, it’s been over 2 months.

So you contact iCloud support and they have no clue how to help you. Every time they suggest a solution it ends up limiting your options for a new Apple ID even further. at the moment i am stuck with going back to gmail or creating a brand new “identity” for myself. But, i don’t want to. I am CKFio and I always will be. Why would they insist i chnage that? Wouldn’t it be easier and less aggravating for all parties involved to just allow for the merge of Apple IDs or the ability to delete one, etc.? I realize the implications of data integrity audits, etc. But you can modify old records to liberate the originals and alow users a bit more flexibility.

I welcome any comments or suggestions. I am beside myself with frustration and would LOVE a solution.

THE MONSTER AT THE END OF THE BOOK
Sometimes we go by life reacting to situations presented to us and in the process we become fearful of the outcome. What will it really be like now that we’ve reacted? Now that we have information we didn’t before.
Fighting temptation is difficult. sometimes this fear we’ve developed isn’t enough to keeps us from sucumbing. and so, the vicious cycle is born.
And it is not until there’s nothing left to do but realize that we are the authors of our stories, that we realize that at the end the outcome will be a refflcetion of who we are. and what we portray to the others will always be what they see in us.

THE MONSTER AT THE END OF THE BOOK

Sometimes we go by life reacting to situations presented to us and in the process we become fearful of the outcome. What will it really be like now that we’ve reacted? Now that we have information we didn’t before.

Fighting temptation is difficult. sometimes this fear we’ve developed isn’t enough to keeps us from sucumbing. and so, the vicious cycle is born.

And it is not until there’s nothing left to do but realize that we are the authors of our stories, that we realize that at the end the outcome will be a refflcetion of who we are. and what we portray to the others will always be what they see in us.

CELEBRATING 34 IN PREPARATION FOR 35

CELEBRATING 34 IN PREPARATION FOR 35